Psalm 46

Be still, and know that I am God.

How powerful is that statement right there?

How many times in our life do we scurry around and try to do what is best for us. We are like little tiny worker ants, always storing up food.

Times get tough, the waters get rough, but be still and know that God can silence the ocean with a command.

We can't do that very easily can we? No not silence the ocean, but be still. We think we know what is best for us and try with our best effort to make things happen for ourselves.

I am in a predicament at work where I don't want to be still. I don't want to give it up to the Lord, but rather try to use my force and will to make things happen.

But God is telling me to be still. What can I gain by worrying, by scurrying around like a chicken with his head cut off. Be patient, God wants the best for me.

My career is like a speck in his great and infinite plan. It's a piece of sand, yet the almighty God, the King of kings, still cares enough to come down to my level and desire the best for me.

How amazing is that, how indescribable in human words.

Be still, and know that I am God

The Strange Wedding

This is so pimp.

(Photo by Jonathan Yeo)

I used to drink because there was pain,

drinking doesn't have the same allure.

My Boys

Bird Infanticide

I'm a murderer.  A dove recently made her nest in between my shoes.  When I first noticed it, it scared the hell out of me.  I was reaching for my shoes and saw this thing in the corner of my eye moving around. 

Anyways we didn't know what to do with it, whether we should call animal control or what.  I called them but they are closed on the weekend.  So I decided to just dispose of it.  I shot the mommy bird with rubber pellet gun like 5 times but it didn't move.  So I shooed it away with a broom and inside of the nest was two little eggs.  

I felt very conflicted about just disposing of the nest so I tried to find a new home for it, but as I was moving it, the eggs fell out of the nest and dropped to the ground.  I wasn't really being very careful with it I had it in a dust pan and was just trying to leave it somewhere.  Yeah I suck.  The mommy bird hung around for awhile and kept coming back to the spot for a few days.  Poor bird.

Berkeley Kite Festival

Went to the Berkeley Kite Festival.  Kid and I were less than enthused.  Long wait in traffic, $10 parking, and a long walk from the car just to see a bunch of kites.  These big ones were cool though. 

Christian watched them for like 10 minutes and then said, "I wanna go home."  We walked around a little bit and went out for some sliced pizza afterwards.  I think the pizza was his favorite part.  Ahhh just like daddy.  

Evil is a Hella of a Drug

I've been told by many people that I am honest in my sharing.  There are people who you meet and they are like an open book, that's me.  Other people you can know for a lifetime and to get any vulnerability from them is like pulling teeth.  Those types of people drive me crazy! 

My prior post was a very honest and quite negative.  I am doing much better now.  Sometimes when you speak from the heart and your heart is not feeling that great you get some grumbling. 

My wife says that the longer she gets to know me she feels more and more that I am really introverted.  I take everything personally and to heart.  I see things not from a holistic worldly perspective, but from my own egocentric POV.  

Another big reason why she thinks I'm introverted is because I feel most at peace and rested when I am by myself rather that with other people.  Some people like to constantly surround themselves with people and that's how they recharge.  Others need some alone time to reenergize and are perfectly happy by themselves.  My perfect vacation is actually staying at home with my family.  It's funny.  Every time I get back from a trip I need a separate vacation from that vacation.  A little unwinding time by myself in comfortable surroundings.    

Anyways Like I said I am doing better, I need to start cutting people a little slack, some might call it grace.  "Where's your grace?" my wife always says.  I don't know, I need to find it.  God help me know the grace that you have given freely to me.  Life is a constant spiritual battle and the devil always tries to take me out with my negativity and love for hatred.  Evil is a hella of a drug.  Like any other drug if you entertain it even a little bit, take a few hits here and there, it will eventually consume you.    

I leave with you with the opposite of evil, my son trying on his little brother's Kaiser beanie.