
My mother in law *Arthur* is coming into town for a week to pick up the rest of her stuff. Thankfully she decided to live in Boston with Mary's sister. It's really difficult for me to love her. I'd rather pick her up and body slam her.
Yesterday our pastor said that we should try to love everyone in our church through God's eyes even if we don't particulary like them. I have a hard time with that distinction. I love to hate too much, like to focus on the negative.
I'm actually working really hard on changing this. One way I'm working on this is not to verbalize my negative thought on things and people. When you verbalize negative thoughts, you give them power and validity. You are basically reaffirming these negative thoughts that you had and giving them life. And these negative thoughts like to breed other negative thoughts. Great now I sound like Joel Osteen.
But I seriously need to change this behavior because I think it is slowly taking over me. I've become a hatemonger. I put a reminder in my Outlook every morning, it says this; Be positive. Negativity breeds. Nobody likes to be around a negative person. Always focus on the postives first! Yeah that's how serious I'm taking this.
I guess it's a lot better than looking at yourself every morning in the mirror and saying, "Nobody likes you. Everybody hates you. You're gonna lose." I actually don't say that. I stole that line from the Last Boyscout, a pretty good lesser known Bruce Willis movie co-starring Damon Wayans. But I totally know how that character felt.
*Arthur* What I nicknamed my mother in law in prior posts based on the character of "Arthur" the father in law in King of Queens.