First post in seven years!!! LOL
“No matter what life throws at her, it can’t win. Even if you lock her up in a room without any opening, she’ll find a way to find the light.”
A quote from this stupid Korean drama I’m watching, When the Cameillia Blooms. It made me tear up. Reminded me of my childhood and how hard the struggle was. It felt like every time I dug up out of the ground to get some light, something else would happen and would pour more dirt over me.
Somehow I found the strength to go on. It’s a wonder why I never gave up. There’s a theory called Learned Helplessness where animals or people who continuously get exposed to negative stimuli beyond their control (electric shock), when exposed to future negative stimuli in the future will not escape it even when they can move to a different spot where there is no shock. Whereas you put an animal that was never exposed to shock before in that situation, they will move themselves out of danger to avoid the shock.
The prior animal continuously exposed to shock gives up. They realize that no matter what they do they can’t avoid the pain. And even when offered a way out in the future will not take it.
For some reason I feel like I have experienced some form of delayed learned helplessness. After my life calmed down a bit and I was not in constant danger, I feel like I’ve gotten lazy and when I come across a situation that stresses me out, I don’t react to it, unless it’s a 9 or a 10 and it kick starts my flight or fight.
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